Love – a single word that most of the world desires. It can make us feel whole, wanted, seen. It lifts us, warms us, and for a moment, makes us believe that nothing could ever go wrong.

Or so I thought.

When Love Betrays

Experiencing betrayal firsthand shattered that belief.

Love remained captivating and beautiful, yet I learned that it could also be destructive.

A double-edged sword that cuts deeper than anything else.

When I discovered the betrayal, the love I carried didn’t vanish. Instead, it transformed into immeasurable pain – a painful love I couldn’t comprehend. If it had turned into pure hatred, perhaps I could’ve save myself. But that would have destroyed a part of me I still needed to hold onto.

Love is incredibly beautiful when it’s shared mutual – when someone cherishes your feelings, your joy, your heart, your soul.

From Butterflies to Suffocation.

Those butterflies you feel fluttering around joyfully in your stomach? They’re real. They make you feel like you’re floating above the world, above the ones who wanted to harm you. Above misery.

But when someone crushes those butterflies, they don’t just die – they fall to the pit of your stomach, releasing something dark. It rises to your heart and lungs, squeezing them tight. The it climbs so painfully to your brain, distorting everything you thought you understood.

That’s when love feels like suffocation. Like madness. Like being strangled by an invisible hand but you’re not allowed to die from it. And if you’re not careful, you’ll fall deeper than the ones you once pitied.

The Awakening

Yet, even through all that pain, those madness, something changed inside me. An ugly yet essential truth. A strength I never knew I had. I learned to forgive. I have learned to love myself. But that awakening didn’t come easy – I had to survive countless emotional jungles to get there.

When you give your love to someone more than you give it to yourself, the pain is unbearable. It can make you lose your will to live. It can make you question your sanity, your reality. But when you finally tap into your hidden strength, you realize that this pain – this agony – is your best life teacher.

You began to face your feelings instead of fleeing like a damn lizard from them. You learn to command them like second nature.

A Personal Reflection

Love is beautiful. And ugly. But what truly matters is how you rise between the two.

Have you ever felt a love that broke and built you at the same time? I’d love to hear your thoughts in the comments below. If you connected with this post, feel free to share or explore my blog (I’ll try to write more, I promise).

About the Author

Nyxra writes from the heart – a housewife turned writer, she weaves raw emotions into poetic reflections on love, loss, and the unseen strength within. When she’s not writing, she explores books, memories, and dreams.